Friday, March 09, 2012

Seven

"I miss him so much! I can't wait until he's home!", she said. Her boy was away for a few days and, like all mothers, she missed her child desperately. She was excited knowing that she was soon going to have him back home, safe in her arms.

"I'm miss him so much."

Multiply that by forever, I thought.

I have absolutely no idea how anyone survives the loss of a child. Every day I do it, and after all this time I still don't really know how.

Thomas would be seven today. He is gone. And I still breathe and the world still turns - and I just don't know how any of it is possible.

But somehow it is.

And so once again, I'm sending all my love and big birthday kisses heavenward to the sweetest and most beautiful boy I've ever seen.

oxox

17 comments:

AnotherDreamer said...

Thinking of you and your beautiful son.

Illanare said...

Thinking of you and your baby boy x

loribeth said...

But of course, we wouldn't understand, because we don't have children. :p

Happy birthday, sweet Thomas. He really was a beautiful baby, Kristen! Thinking of you so much today.

The Nanny said...

Remembering Thomas today. Thinking of you all, and sending lots of love. Happy birthday, sweet boy.

Mrs. Spit said...

Happy birthday Thomas. Your mummy misses you.

areyoukiddingme said...

Happy Birthday, beautiful boy...

jhl said...

Happy birthday to your precious angel. Thinking of you today...

Mali said...

Thinking of you today -and not just today.

Jo said...

What a touching tribute to your son. I am thinking of you and Thomas and holding you both in my heart today.

Gusgirl said...

((((HUGS)))) to you and Sandy. Thinking of Thomas.

I hope the world felt the ripple yesterday of all the good done in Thomas's name.

Anita G.

Pipsylou said...

I am really not sure how it's been 7 years! Thinking about Thomas today.

Valerie said...
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Valerie said...

I don't know how any mother does it... and I did it too. I still don't know how. Sometimes even after six years it feels like a dream. My heart goes out to you, today and every day.

Happy Birthday, beautiful Thomas. Say hi to James for me if you see him... <3

Ann Smith said...

What a lovely boy Thomas was and is. And I don't know how you do it or how any of us do it.
I do know that you're one of the most eloquent writers I've ever read. On this or any subject. I hope you'll make all of this into a book. I really do.
- Ann

the misfit said...

Happy birthday Thomas. My prayers are with you, Thomas's parents.

sharah said...

that is a beautiful picture. thinking of you.

ApronStringsEm said...

I've been horrible about reading, let alone commenting ... but I just wanted to let you know that I'm thinking of you. {{hugs}}