I'm much better tonight.
I just forgot that it's okay to allow yourself to feel sad. I wasn't purposely ignoring it, but that's absolutely what I was doing; focusing on the good and pretending there was no bad at all.
For balance and sanity it is, unfortunately, necessary to feel everything.
Once I gave in and just let myself hurt, I started to feel better. It sounds counter intuitive, but for some reason acknowledging the dark somehow makes it okay to bask in the light.
Okay, I'm not exactly basking - let's be honest. But I do feel better.
So what if there's a little mind-game action going on? That's necessary too. On days like this, very necessary indeed.