Yesterday I discovered that my secret is even bigger than I imagined. Twice as big, actually.
I'm pregnant. With twins.
It was an unmedicated, unmonitored cycle that presented itself as completely non-pregnant cycle. My temperature dropped and what appeared to be my period arrived at the end of it. With its arrival came the consumption of Hard Lemonade (remember that post?) and beer with the neighbours. What followed was a period of two and a half weeks of shockingly reckless behavior for someone pregnant with twins. I cleaned out the basement (remember that post?), put up rabbit fencing in the blazing heat, popped blood pressure medication I shouldn't have, had aspirin and Robitussin when I came down with a cold and went for a 5K walk that wore me out beyond belief.
I just had no idea.
When I had some strange midcycle spotting (which I was convinced was cancer-related) I took an HPT because I knew the doctor would ask me if I had done so when I went to see her about the cancer.
To my shock, up popped two very dark lines. Immediately.
And thus began the roller coaster (which, to be honest, is still making me pretty friggin' dizzy).
It's probably early to be announcing this secret because the sacs are still so tiny (common in twin pregnancies) that they can't actually see anyone inside yet, but my reasoning is that we've already made the most agonizingly difficult announcement we ever hope to have to make. If something goes wrong with these little tigers in the next few days or weeks, we'll be okay. We can make that announcement too.
But in the meantime, I can tell the world that they're here. That they exist, for however long. I want to celebrate the fact that by some miracle I was able to get pregnant again after two years of trying, and that the gods saw fit to bless us with twins.
I also want the world to know that I'm utterly head over heels in love with them. It's completely reckless and something I'd hoped to avoid, but I simply can't help it.
There. That's my secret. Now about that chocolate you all promised...