Tuesday, July 24, 2007

Not much, and you?

What have I been up to? Not much. Just sitting here on pins and needles, resisting the urge to scream that it isn't fair that we're still sitting here on pins and needles after everything we've endured over the past 28 months. But then, so much isn't fair. Why should this be any different?

And there's still hope. Thank God, there's still hope. This stomach churning, on-and-off-all-day nausea, and the fatigue that has me dragging myself out of bed three hours later than I normally do just has to mean something good, right?

So when I'm not clinging to the promise of strong physical pregnancy symptoms, I'm trying not to think much about it at all. And desperately trying not to get too attached, or to dream all the dreams I'm dreaming despite myself.

One day at a time. That's the best I can do right now.

So I'll just be sitting here waiting. And eating soda crackers.

17 comments:

Anna said...

Delurking to say WOOHOO and congrats!!! :) I am sure hoping and praying that you get to see those little munchkins on Friday! ((((hugs))))) Hope you are feeling better! Rest while you can!

Granny said...

I'll be waiting and keeping you in my thoughts.

ARA said...

Praying for two flickering, healthy heartbeats on Friday. Try chewing bubble gum for the quesy stomach. It helped more than the soda crackers. (((((HUGS)))))

Catherine said...

I personally enjoy graham crackers better. :o)

Sherry said...

You're doing all you *can* do at this point. Take it all as it comes and don't become overwhelmed by the bigger picture.

I know it's no picnic for you, but your symptoms are indeed a *very* good sign.

P.S. Ginger snaps worked well for me. I suppose gingerbread would work, too. Mmmm ... baked goods. ;-)

kimberm_71 said...

Personally, this is the suckiest time of a pregnancy. The 1T waiting game.

I second the graham crackers and would also like to recommend lemonade. Anything sour helped me tons during the 1T. ((Hugs)) and hang in there :-)

cjzben said...

Hang in there my friend, this part is so so hard. I am very hopeful for you and your little ones. I am thinking of you.
Claire

SaraS-P said...

The nausea is good.

Wishing the best for you and the twins.

Kim said...

Praying very often for you and your little ones. I hope that Friday brings the best news possible!

Heather said...

They are totally good signs!!!

delphi said...

I hope the crappiness (re: pregnancy symptoms) continues, if it is reassuring. Looking to Friday for good news.

Scrappy_Lady said...

Crossing everything that you get fantastic news.

Monica said...

The symptoms you are having is great news! I'll be thinking about you this week and hope you see those two "sacs" with little white beans!

kate said...

that bone-numbing fatigue is a very good sign.... ;)

Denise said...

Wishing you continued nausea...in the nicest way possible. (((hugs)))

Julia said...

Dude-- *I* am counting down to Friday. How could *you* not be on pins and needles? With Monkey, there was a ten day wait between seeing a sac and seeing a pole in it. That was hard. Just a little bit longer now. And yes, that fatigue? Good sign. And it making you sleep 3 extra hours a day? Even better-- shortens the conscious part of waiting. :)

The Asbury Family said...

The waiting game is horrid. Time seems to stand still, and even when you pretend to be thinking about something else/concentrating on something else, you're really still thinking and wondering. I feel for you.

With all of the positive energy I see on here, it's obvious have a bunch of people in your corner all rooting for a great apt. on Friday.

((hugs)) while you wait.