Saturday, November 12, 2005

Thomas

This is my Thomas. My Beloved doesn't like to share him - doesn't feel the same need I do to have people see him or know him - but if I could, I'd show the whole world what a beautiful little boy we made. I know in a way he's right; Thomas was just for us. He only lived in me and only My Beloved and I really knew him, but as much as I "get" that, I hate it too. He should be part of this world, and just because he's not doesn't mean he should stay hidden from view. Not my boy.

So here he is. This is my son.

10 comments:

Julie said...

He is so truely beautiful. I am so sorry he is not here with you. Thank you so much for sharing him. (((hugs)))

Lisa P. said...

He really is beautiful, you know. He deserves to be "shown off".

(((hugs)))

sillyhummingbird said...

Thank you so much for sharing him with us. He is a beautiful boy. How blissful and excruciating to know heaven is full of such perfect angels.

Bronwyn said...

He is a such a beautiful boy and I can see why you would want to show him off. Thank you for sharing him with us. It seems that men often have a very different reaction to the idea of sharing the story and pictures of their lost children. I think maybe its a protective instinct, them wanting to keep their emotions private. But even though I'm a fairly private person myself, I do like talking about my baby with friends and family. She'll always be a part of my story and I don't want her to be forgotten.

Catherine said...

He is so gorgeous. Is it ok if I tell you that I can see you in him? I'm sorry all you have is pictures and memories. I'm sorry you have a reason to feel this pain and sadness. I'm sorry for it all. And I'm angry for you too. The universe isn't right to allow this to happen.

kate said...

Oh Kristin, he is just beautiful. (((((((hugs)))))))) I am so sorry he is not here with you....

Julie said...

He is absolutely beautiful. I am so sorry that you have to hold pictures and memories instead of that wonderful little boy. This is so unfair. {{{hugs}}}

smileyeily323 said...

Even though you already know what I (we) think of Thomas, I just can't help but tell you again how beautiful he truly is. I think it is quite tender that your Beloved wants to keep him safely tucked in his heart, but I can also totally see why you want to show him to the world. He is just so sweet and special, that how could you not? You are a proud, proud Mama. As you should, and will always be.

(((Hugs)))

vixanne wigg said...

He really is beautiful. Truly a perfect angel.

Maya's Mom said...

I have spent the evening reading your entire blog from the start, and I've wondered several times as I read if you would ever find the strength to share a picture of Thomas with us. You did. :*) Thank you for letting us have a chance to know your beautiful child too. He is touching so many lives in a positive way, and so are *you*. :*) Prayers of continued healing for your broken heart.