(((((HUGS)))) I agree I would wash your hands. Im sorry it is so heart wrenching and wish it could be a time of happiness for you and not a sad reminder of what you have lost.....a precious soul
I've only held my little nephew (who is a month older than my son)because really there was no way that I could get around that. But I did avoid him for two months after Nate was born. I don't think that I could hold a little, bitty baby like you did--that took a lot of strength.
I think it is.... I have held a few... you know, people shoving them into my arms thinking it would "help" me to hold a baby. It always makes me want to puke....
I think it is. Even if it's only for a short time, it does feel like dying. I even feel it when I see a pregnant women all happy and ignorant. Right then, it feels like dying for sure.
I don't think it is possible but I am sure it feels like it is possible. I am impressed that you held a baby. I have not been through nearly the journey you have been on and find it difficult to even look at babies these days. You are an inspiration to me and I hope if I follow your lead it will help me to heal. Thank you.
It certainly FEELS like you could die from it..... It's such an odd mixture of emotions, holding a baby. I've only done it a couple of times since Levi.... on one hand it feels so right to hold a baby, but on the other hand, it feels so wrong that the baby is not mine.
Wow - you are brave.... Just thinking about that is making me throat close up right now. But - you did it right? Hopefully it will make it easier and not so scary/awful next time. The next new baby I hold will probably be in Sept and I am already nervous about it.
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I think it may be possible, yes. Go wash your hands!
I agree - go wash your hands.
I haven't held any babies since my own, so I don't know if you can die from the agony. I'm guessing no, but I have no way of knowing for certain.
(((((HUGS)))))) I know that couldn't have been an easy thing for you. I know I'm still not ready to hold a baby that's not my own.
(((((HUGS)))) I agree I would wash your hands. Im sorry it is so heart wrenching and wish it could be a time of happiness for you and not a sad reminder of what you have lost.....a precious soul
Oh Kristin (((((hugs)))))
I've only held my little nephew (who is a month older than my son)because really there was no way that I could get around that. But I did avoid him for two months after Nate was born. I don't think that I could hold a little, bitty baby like you did--that took a lot of strength.
I think it is.... I have held a few... you know, people shoving them into my arms thinking it would "help" me to hold a baby. It always makes me want to puke....
I think it is. Even if it's only for a short time, it does feel like dying. I even feel it when I see a pregnant women all happy and ignorant. Right then, it feels like dying for sure.
Everyone's right....wash.
I don't think it is possible but I am sure it feels like it is possible.
I am impressed that you held a baby. I have not been through nearly the journey you have been on and find it difficult to even look at babies these days.
You are an inspiration to me and I hope if I follow your lead it will help me to heal. Thank you.
Well I hope holding that baby brings you good luck!!!!
It certainly FEELS like you could die from it..... It's such an odd mixture of emotions, holding a baby. I've only done it a couple of times since Levi.... on one hand it feels so right to hold a baby, but on the other hand, it feels so wrong that the baby is not mine.
Wow - you are brave....
Just thinking about that is making me throat close up right now. But - you did it right? Hopefully it will make it easier and not so scary/awful next time. The next new baby I hold will probably be in Sept and I am already nervous about it.
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