Wednesday, June 14, 2006

A simple question

I just held the neighbour's two-week old baby - the first one I've had in my arms since my own.

I can still smell her baby scent on my hands.

Is it possible to die from this agony? Is it?

10 comments:

Catherine said...

I think it may be possible, yes. Go wash your hands!

Sherry said...

I agree - go wash your hands.

I haven't held any babies since my own, so I don't know if you can die from the agony. I'm guessing no, but I have no way of knowing for certain.

(((((HUGS)))))) I know that couldn't have been an easy thing for you. I know I'm still not ready to hold a baby that's not my own.

Nikki said...

(((((HUGS)))) I agree I would wash your hands. Im sorry it is so heart wrenching and wish it could be a time of happiness for you and not a sad reminder of what you have lost.....a precious soul

Laura said...

Oh Kristin (((((hugs)))))

I've only held my little nephew (who is a month older than my son)because really there was no way that I could get around that. But I did avoid him for two months after Nate was born. I don't think that I could hold a little, bitty baby like you did--that took a lot of strength.

miraclebaby said...

I think it is.... I have held a few... you know, people shoving them into my arms thinking it would "help" me to hold a baby. It always makes me want to puke....

MB said...

I think it is. Even if it's only for a short time, it does feel like dying. I even feel it when I see a pregnant women all happy and ignorant. Right then, it feels like dying for sure.

Everyone's right....wash.

Shinny said...

I don't think it is possible but I am sure it feels like it is possible.
I am impressed that you held a baby. I have not been through nearly the journey you have been on and find it difficult to even look at babies these days.
You are an inspiration to me and I hope if I follow your lead it will help me to heal. Thank you.

Rosemarie said...

Well I hope holding that baby brings you good luck!!!!

Levi's Mommy said...

It certainly FEELS like you could die from it..... It's such an odd mixture of emotions, holding a baby. I've only done it a couple of times since Levi.... on one hand it feels so right to hold a baby, but on the other hand, it feels so wrong that the baby is not mine.

Emma's Mum said...

Wow - you are brave....
Just thinking about that is making me throat close up right now. But - you did it right? Hopefully it will make it easier and not so scary/awful next time. The next new baby I hold will probably be in Sept and I am already nervous about it.