Wednesday, August 15, 2007

The end

I have a D&C scheduled for Tuesday afternoon.

Tonight we eat cheesecake. Maybe the whole thing.

And the gods? Well, they can go screw themselves. We are strong. We've weathered every single horrendous shitstorm they've chosen to hurl at us, and we'll weather this one too.

Battered and bruised - yes, we're battered and bruised. But they can't beat us.

They will never beat us.

47 comments:

Megan said...

Delurking to rail at the unfairness of it. I know you're strong, but no one should have to weather this much. I'm so sorry.

Scrappy_Lady said...

I'm so sorry, Kristin.

My heart goes out to you and your Beloved.

I'm glad to see the strength in your post, but that doesn't make it any more fair.

M said...

I'm standing right here beside you my love - and am so very, very sorry.... x

Margaret said...

Oh, CK! I'm so very sorry. I just don't know what to say. I cry for you and your beloved, and the complete and total unfairness of it all.

wannabe mom said...

i'm so sorry. it is completely wrong what you are both going through. (((hugs and more hugs)))

bleu said...

I am so heartbroken for you. I wish you any and all peace possible for this awful time.

stephanie said...

So, so sorry to hear this, Kristin. These stupid internet hugs aren't nearly as strong and warm as I want them to be.
All my love to you and the mister.

The Asbury Family said...

I'm so sorry. ((hugs))

DinosaurD said...

I told you - "you are one tough nut to crack" (thankfully or you'd be way too heavily medicated to be posting).
I'm so sorry that this one ended this way.
DinoD

hammygirl said...

I'm so so sorry.

Catherine said...

Man this sucks! Have some cheesecake for me.

Lollipop Goldstein said...

I am so so sorry, sweetheart.

Roxanne said...

I have nothing to say. It just fucking sucks.

Angel Mom said...

I'm so sorry.

Kathy McC said...

Oh, hon. I am so sorry. I wish I could take all of this pain away for you.

SWH said...

I'm so sorry... I'm biting my tongue trying to not release a slew of swear words.

I hope you finished off the cheesecake.

Granny said...

It isn't fair and I'm so sorry.

Abby said...

I don't doubt that you're strong and you'll make it through this, but I wish you didn't have to. All my H&S and prayers are going out to you and Sandy and your angels tonight.

Have all the cheesecake you want. And then have some more for breakfast tomorrow.

Denise said...

I'm so sorry...unfair doesn't even begin to describe it. (((((((hugs)))))))

Rosemarie said...

(((HUGS)))
My heart is breaking for you. I find such inspiration in your strength.

Definitely have the whole cheesecake, throw in some chocolate for good measure.

BigP's Heather said...

You two ARE an amazingly strong couple. I have no doubt you two can make it through anything. I'm sorry that you had to find that out this way though.

Lori said...

I'm so very sorry, CK. Many hugs to you and your Beloved. The two of you are some of the strongest people I know and I hate that you've had to be so strong.

Kendra's mom said...

I am so very sorry that it had to come to this. Wishing you extra strength over the next few weeks.

Hope you had lots of cheesecake. I will also have some just for you.

Beruriah said...

I'm sorry. I hate hate hate that you've had to be so strong.

Aurelia said...

Crap, crap, crap,

I'm so sorry, this is just so horrendously awful.

When you are feeling a little more up to it, let me know, and we'll meet for a drink, on me.

A REALLY LARGE drink.

Laura said...

Oh Kristin, I'm so sorry. So much love to you and your beloved.

Sherry said...

Again, I'm so, so sorry for you, dear friend.

((((HUGS))))

kate said...

Again, i amr so sorry. It is just so wrong.

Julie said...

I don't have anything to say, but I am sending you hugs. You are in my thoughts.

Dr. Grumbles said...

Eat all the cheesecake you want.

So sorry.

Kristen said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. I will be thinking of you and wishing you peace.

XOXO,
Kristen

Unknown said...

CK, I'm so sorry. You don't need me to say that tis whole thing just sucks.

Eat that cheesecake. I'm going to make a batch of your easy peanut butter cookies in your honor.((hugs))

Ann Howell said...

Rats, this is really bloody unfair... Your strength never ceases to amaze me as you weather these horrific storms, though.

Take care, you two. Thinking of you...

JJ said...

Im just amazed at your resolve and strength--and I want to focus on the positive, but I also want to express my sorrow for you and your husband. I am so very sad for you...
You all have been through so much already-and I believe that your strength and faith in each other will build you back up...

sharah said...

My heart goes out to you and your Beloved. I am so sorry you are having to go through this.

Joy said...

I admire your strength while hating that you need it again.
I'm very sorry for your loss.

Pamela T. said...

Feeling heartsick for you and your husband. Truly sorry. Wishing you strength and peace.

niobe said...

You're absolutely right: they will never beat you.

megan said...

here via mel's lost and found.
i'm so, so sorry. unfair just doesn't even begin to scratch the surface.

Unknown said...

I came via Mel's too, and wanted to say how very sorry I am to read this desperately sad news. You and your husband are in my thoughts.

Angela said...

Oh Kristen, I am so sorry. My heart goes out to you and your husband. You sound so strong in this post. We'll all still be here for you during the not-so-strong times.

CappyPrincess said...

Kristen, I've been trying to think of what to say - this really sucks! and I'm sorry just don't seem words enough. As so many people have already said, it really isn't fair and I wish you and your beloved were not having to face this.

FattyPants said...

I'm here from the lost and found too. I am so sorry for your losses.

Julia said...

This sucks. It just does. I am so sorry. I, too, hate that you have to be this strong, but know that you are that strong.

Researcher said...

Oh no!!! I'm so so sorry about your babies. I had really hoped you would get that miracle we all wait for. Deepest sympathies.

Unknown said...

Kristin,

I am so sorry sweetheart.
I am just so damn sorry!
Please know that you are in my thoughts....I am sending you so much love and support.

I wish I could give you a huge hug....

xo-Erin

Lisa P. said...

I am so very sorry Kristin. (((hugs)))