Friday, January 18, 2008

The flipside

I suppose it'll make me look reallllly needy and selfish if I beg you to stay, huh? If I tell you that your comments mean the world to me and that I read and ponder and re-read every single one, and that even though I've abandoned you I still want you to stay with me and hold my hand, right?

This doesn't make me look good at all...

But since I seem to be into telling the ugly truth these days, there you go.

Don't leave me. Please?

33 comments:

amywild said...

I'm here! :)

Carrie said...

I'm a lurker/occasional commenter. I don't think you are selfish at all. I would comment more but I'm a bit in awe. You write so well and express yourself and I'm never sure what to say.
Just to let you know I'm here.

delphi said...

I always am here - I always read. I should comment more. I know how it is hard to feel like no one is reading anymore, based on low comments.

Hugs and love to you.

Heather said...

I'm not leaving you, my lamp-finding Buddy.

Rosepetal said...

Leave you? Are you mental?

Catherine said...

I want to say something profound. Something that will make it all better. But that's never been possible. Not on day one...not yesterday...not tomorrow.

Just know that I will always be here. I have come to love you as a friend and I am always wishing you peace.

Sunny said...

I love reading your posts. :)

miraclebaby said...

Not going anywhere, we all need each other. (((hug)))

Julie said...

I'm always here for you. Like Carrie said, I usually only lurk here but I am a loyal reader of your blog and consider you my friend. I also think I should comment more but often the right words seem to escape me.

Kristin, I care about you and I am here for you no matter what. I have come to know you through your words and I am here rooting for you and offering my support and hugs when times are tough. I'll continue to be here as long as you want to share your story.
Much love and (((Hugs))) Julie

Terynn said...

Not a chance of me going anywhere, kiddo. I care. Heck, I even quoted some of your stuff on my blog.

Julia said...

I am here.

BasilBean said...

I wrote a really long comment to the previous post yesterday, but I got interrupted and today when I got back on that computer I couldn't connect to the internet.

I'm here. I don't comment as much as I'd like because it is often a victory just to find time to read blogs. But I'm always here.

Depressionista said...

A mostly-lurker here to also let you know that I'm here and I want to hear what you have to say.

Pamela Jeanne said...

I'm here, too, reading along. Just given my circumstance I'm not sure if hearing from me makes you dwell on an outcome you'd prefer not to have.

Elizabeth said...

As long as you keep writing, I will keep reading. You have a beautiful, sensitive spirit about you and your writing is so evocative. You write with honesty and humanity about your grief, and I resonate with many of your posts even though the nature of my grief was different. Please keep posting!

RoseAnn said...

I'm a lurker. I've been reading your blog for a long time and it breaks my heart but I love how you express yourself despite your pain so I'm hanging around to see how you write about the happy ending.

We have so little in common but I have learned from you and now I can't help but care about you.

ladywithasong said...

You are totally stuck with me, you lovable ape :)

Denise said...

(((hugs)))

Tee said...

Hey,

I have been here a while. You are the very first person I ever "spoke" to in cyberspace way back when on a TTC board far away. That was almost 5 years ago. I am not in your ocean, but not far away on a deserted beach. I have not suffered infant loss, but 2 pg losses. EVERYONE in my life has moved on. I read your blog all the time. I feel a strange affinity to the emptiness you speak of. Anyway, I'm here too.

Granny said...

I don't comment often but I've been here ever since a friend sent me and I'll stay.

I'm another who often can't think of the right words. Sometimes there aren't any.

cjzben said...

your stuck with me too, not a chance you can rid of me :)

Sending you much love today.

Kim said...

I am in the similar sad habit of not being able to get what I want (if you can call it a habit). Nothing like your (very real, very valid) suffering has happened to me, but I know how you feel, even if it's just a bit. I am thinking of and praying for you.

Trish said...

Don't worry. I'm still reading. And I don't feel you need to apologize for not reading my blog as a newly pregnant person.

There's a reason my blogroom is divided into pregnant & parenting.. and people still in the trenches.
Even in my early, tenuous pregnancy it's still hard for me to read very pregnant people's blogs. They're past the beginning stages and I just can't think that far ahead.
You do what you need to do.
I'll still be reading.

vixanne wigg said...

I would totally expect you to feel that way. I will keep coming until you get a happy ending. Maybe I'm just a romantic food, but I think there has got to be a happy ending.

vixanne wigg said...

Okay. That was romantic fool. Not food.

(Me...always with my mind on the eating.)

Sherry said...

I'm here, too ... whether you like it or not. ;)

Ann Smith said...

I'm here. A day late and a dollar short, but I feel as if you're a kindred spirit. You write more beautifully than I every could. Please don't leave us! I've been worrying that you're going to and I would miss you.

loribeth said...

I'm here too, & I love reading your posts.

MB said...

I keep reading. Always checking on you. Hugs.

Katie said...

I'm here, too! I am the same way - if I don't get a lot of comments, I start feeling insecure. It's like high school and my yearbook all over again!

But trust me, I'm still here. If I went away, I would not get to witness your happy ending. I can't wait for that.

The Nanny said...

I'm a lurker, and I may have commented once or twice. But I'm here, I won't leave, I promise!

Lori (mediamom) said...

I'm here!

kate said...

OK, i left my comment on the other post but i might as well comment here too...i am hard to get rid of, you know, like a wart...